nothing about the weather

I wrote a post not too long ago about questioning yourself as you age or find a place for yourself.
Ive learnt it comes when you know who you are. And then typically, as you think you've found peace, you're back in an old place elsewhere and constantly reminded of misfortune and flaws.
Where did I go wrong?
I am close to the most respectful person I know so why am so very fucking often trampled by people and their centered behaviour?
I look back to the fluctuation in teenagehood. I understood and learnt my burdens and lived by the morals as the aid to a happy and peaceful life.
I had to be fair, and stay fair as I would have to deal with something painful, uncomfortable or annoying otherwise.
I thought life was a smooth roll from here on in, because I deserved it. Because I've had a lot of hardship compared to any average Melbourne teenage girl, and because I'm a fucking quality person. And I finally believe that.
I will not live on in naivety but ill believe we get what we deserve and it will all be okay and I'll be happy and living somewhere nice soon.